There is no pain you're receding. A distant ship smoke on the horizon. You're only coming through in waves, your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying. When I was a child, I caught a fleeting glimpse. Out of the corner of my eye, I turned to look but it was gone. I cannot put my finger on it now, the child is grown, the dream is gone..

Tuesday, December 06, 2011

The Passion of Love..

"Do you, Katherine Stevens take Mark Stanford to be your lawfully wedded husband? Do you promise to love, honor, cherish and protect him, forsaking all others and holding only onto him?"
Katherine: "I do.."
She was just so happy being married to the man she loved the most, the man she adored and respected. The man she thought the world of, the man she cared for. The man, who in her eyes, was her Hero.

As Katherine Stanford reflected on that magical day 5 years back, when she had become a woman, a wife to the most wonderful husband that could have ever been, she was jolted back to the present. Sitting on her arm-chair, in front of the T.V. that she had turned off, tears gushed out from her eyes. She started crying like she had never cried in her life. How could it happen? How could it all go wrong, so suddenly? Was it just 2 hours before when she heard it? How could Mark leave her so empty, so alone? The voice from the T.V. started blaring like a terror tone in her ears once again, like a never ending reel of some horror film; she was still too numb in shock to believe it. Her mind was completely paralyzed. 

As, she said firmly to herself, Mark's plane could not just crash. He could not go, just like that. He could not die. Even as she said it, she knew that she was wrong, it had happened. She felt the Adam's apple rising in her throat. For Katherine, time had stopped. She wanted to disappear somewhere. She wanted to curl up into a tiny ball. She wanted to die. She didn't want to accept that Mark was gone, that his plane had crashed, that he would never come back to her. She would never see him again..

Katherine had never known that she would want someone so badly. She craved for Mark, she wanted him to come home at that very moment. She wanted him to hold her close to him, saying that everything would be alright. Katherine could hear Mark so close to her, whispering in her ears, talking to her, saying that he loved her so much.. She wanted to feel his arms around her one more time, sit next to him for hours in silence, letting their eyes speak. How she missed Mark, the way he would touch her, hug her, kiss her, console her, fondle her, love her. How she wished, to feel his stubble caressing her cheeks when he would surprisingly hug her from back. She wanted to feel him, one more last time. Katherine felt that the world had ended for her, she started sobbing uncontrollably on the pillow on which Mark used to put his head. Her mind could not come out of the situation, she knew she had lost everything. Mark not only meant a husband for her, he was her life, her magic, the reason behind her smile and her happiness. She knew she would never be happy again, she would never smile again. She knew that all her happiness was gone, vanished in thin air. Katherine felt cold, lost and incomplete. She knew that she could not survive without Mark. He was everything for her.

It slowly dawned upon Katherine, that there was no hope left, for her to see Mark again. Reality suddenly struck her like lightning. She felt a chill down her spine and her insides squirmed with agony. She was totally broken apart in pieces, realizing that she would never ever see her husband. 

Katherine Stanford, then suddenly knew what she had to do, to meet him once again.. She would see her Mark again. She saw the blade the razor with which Mark had shaved, just 8 hours before, for the last time. She detached the blade, saw their wedding photo hanging on the wall, for one last time and slashed her wrist with the blade..She could see her life flash in front of her in the final 10 seconds, could feel the blood gushing out of her body, her pulse rapidly going down. She could see Mark's face so clearly now, shining with joy, when she had told him that she was going to have a baby, 2 months back. That was the happiest she had ever seen him. It sketched the beautiful final image of Katherine's life.

2 hours later...
The telephone in the hall started ringing. It continued ringing, for Katherine was no more, to answer it. It finally went to the answering machine. It looked like someone had left one last message. It said, 

"Hello, Kathy darling. It's Mark here. I saw the dreadful news, and I just called to inform you that I am safe. I missed my flight, I could not make it to the airport. One of my friends met with an accident, so I had to rush him to the hospital.The operation lasted for 4 hours, and there was no way in which I could have called you. I called you as soon as I came to know about the mishap. I know you must be worried about me, I will be home in an hour baby. I love you, please don't worry, I am safe. Love, Mark.."

This post is for all those people who are madly, truly, completely in love. Love is the most beautiful, passionate and complete feeling in the world, but because of love, don't stop thinking. Think a thousand times before taking any wrong step. Don't hurt yourself. Don't do something, that would make you regret forever.. 

"Somethings in our life are never foreseen; but when they come, they destroy everything we ever had..that was once only ours.."


  1. This was one heck of a post! So simple, so lucid! Loved it! I don't know what to say now! Amazing! Loved it! :(
    Now I hate the fact that Mark was alive! X_X

  2. Khushboo: Awwie! Thanks a lot girl! Thank you! I know it leaves us in a sad state of mind, but that was all it was about! :(

  3. Omg .. you know I had goosebumps at the end of the post.. Somehow I knew Mark was alive and what she did was crazy...

    Love the message..So true.. Love is blind and sometimes silly. It makes you do stupid things, which you know you shouldn't .. Btw I must commend you on this post especially since you've expressed a girl's pain in the most appropriate manner. That ws great!

    Good story man! And thank you for dropping by my blog! :)

  4. Confused Soul: I am totally flattered! Thanks a lot for the awesome compliments! I actually could not bring myself to write the end, but somehow I knew I had to complete it someday! This post was saved as a draft for almost a week, but then I finally finished it today!
    Thanks again! :D